Two posts in one day?! Sometimes it's necessary because I just can't stop singing this song...
Our God is greater, our God is stronger
God You are higher than any other
Our God is healer, awesome in power
Our God, our God...
And if our God is for us, then who could ever stop us
And if our God is with us, then what could stand against?
..."What could stand against"? NOTHING. This weekend, You tore through my carefully built walls of hurt, bitterness and rejection, completely removing what has weighed me down for so long. I can physically feel that it's gone. Because of You, my heart feels lighter. Happier. More like my old self again. It's no wonder I can't help but sing Your praises.
Monday, October 25, 2010
Reflecting
Hello Little One,
I'm thinking about you today. I think about you all the time. It's been over 7 weeks since the last time I saw you and I'm so anxious to see you again. We survived our first trimester together and, while I spent too much time wishing it away due to morning sickness, I can't believe that over a third of our time together is already over. It's so hard to believe I have been waiting for 8 years to experience everything I've experienced since July 20th.
Not many women can say that each of their children has made them a new mother, but I can. Your big brother waltzed into our lives in a rush that flew by us so fast, we hardly knew what happened. He made me a Mommy and gave me my first time experiences as a mom. You, on the other hand, are taking a bit slower of a route, requiring a lot of patience, waiting, and nervousness. When you are born -- and even right now and the months to come -- you are also giving me new experiences as a mother that I have never had before. I have never known what morning sickness and fatigue was like. I have never felt a baby move or kick from inside me. I have never felt labor pains. I have never known what it is like to look into the precious eyes of a little one that my body helped to nurture and grow as God created you inside me. I have never nursed a child or known that bond that can only happen between mother and child. Thanks to you, I will have known all of these things by the time April rolls around.
I love the fact that each of you have brought a newness to my life; that God gave each of my children a unique, precious gift to give to me. I pray that you will always know the amazing God we serve and you will never forget the miracles He gave your Daddy and me when he brought you and your brother into our lives. I can hardly wait to see you again next week...please don't be bashful so I know if I should start buying pink or organizing all of our blue!
Love,
Mommy
I'm thinking about you today. I think about you all the time. It's been over 7 weeks since the last time I saw you and I'm so anxious to see you again. We survived our first trimester together and, while I spent too much time wishing it away due to morning sickness, I can't believe that over a third of our time together is already over. It's so hard to believe I have been waiting for 8 years to experience everything I've experienced since July 20th.
Not many women can say that each of their children has made them a new mother, but I can. Your big brother waltzed into our lives in a rush that flew by us so fast, we hardly knew what happened. He made me a Mommy and gave me my first time experiences as a mom. You, on the other hand, are taking a bit slower of a route, requiring a lot of patience, waiting, and nervousness. When you are born -- and even right now and the months to come -- you are also giving me new experiences as a mother that I have never had before. I have never known what morning sickness and fatigue was like. I have never felt a baby move or kick from inside me. I have never felt labor pains. I have never known what it is like to look into the precious eyes of a little one that my body helped to nurture and grow as God created you inside me. I have never nursed a child or known that bond that can only happen between mother and child. Thanks to you, I will have known all of these things by the time April rolls around.
I love the fact that each of you have brought a newness to my life; that God gave each of my children a unique, precious gift to give to me. I pray that you will always know the amazing God we serve and you will never forget the miracles He gave your Daddy and me when he brought you and your brother into our lives. I can hardly wait to see you again next week...please don't be bashful so I know if I should start buying pink or organizing all of our blue!
Love,
Mommy
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
My Heart Today: A Confession
I have a confession. The mothering side of my heart has NOT been very happy these days. There's no good reason for it; I've just had ZERO patience with my boy. There's no excuse, really. Nor is there any excuse for my behavior toward him. Once my hubby gets home, my world is set straight again and all is well, but I've really been struggling these last couple weeks in the hours he is not around. I woke up this morning and vaguely remembered praying during a random waking moment that God would help me with this today. As I sat down to read my Bible, this happened to be a portion of what was laid out for me today (from 1 Thessalonians 5:14-18):
...Be patient with EVERYONE.
...ALWAYS be joyful.
...NEVER stop praying.
...Be THANKFUL in ALL circumstances for this is God's will for you.
I'll be the first to admit that I was convicted (and then some)! What amazed me the most was that I set down my Bible and was immediately confronted with a highly annoying situation. I was shocked when I caught myself about to react in the way I usually do and instead of words coming out of my mouth, I was silenced and instead took a deep breath, thinking "be patient with EVERYONE (including your 2 year old)...always be joyful (even when you're easily irritated for no good reason)..." Because of this, today has been a little bit better than my last two weeks. I won't pretend like it was a perfect day because, honestly, I'm far from being perfect. After the way I've felt though, any improvement is welcome.
...Be patient with EVERYONE.
...ALWAYS be joyful.
...NEVER stop praying.
...Be THANKFUL in ALL circumstances for this is God's will for you.
I'll be the first to admit that I was convicted (and then some)! What amazed me the most was that I set down my Bible and was immediately confronted with a highly annoying situation. I was shocked when I caught myself about to react in the way I usually do and instead of words coming out of my mouth, I was silenced and instead took a deep breath, thinking "be patient with EVERYONE (including your 2 year old)...always be joyful (even when you're easily irritated for no good reason)..." Because of this, today has been a little bit better than my last two weeks. I won't pretend like it was a perfect day because, honestly, I'm far from being perfect. After the way I've felt though, any improvement is welcome.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Thankful
Lately, I feel as if I do way too much moaning and groaning and do not focus enough on the things that truly matter in my life. In all reality, life is great. I may complain about a day of not feeling well. I may complain about a difficult 2 1/2 (+) year old. I may complain about how I feel like my house isn't ever clean anymore. But really, life is just how I want it to be. The bad things make you appreciate the good. Without them, we wouldn't ever realize just how great things are. Today was a good day...no...a great day. We all laughed, we played, we had fun -- and I stopped doing the dishes to go kiss my man and tell him how much I love this life we have together. I wouldn't trade even my worst day of it for anything in the world, because it's ours.
Thank You, Father for all You've given us. May I never forget and take things for granted, like the privilege of kissing my little one's "stinky foots" when he falls (forcing him into a giggling fit because he thinks it's funny that he got me to kiss his foot). I'd do anything for that boy, Lord. He's the gift in my life that came straight from You and I treasure him oh, so much. I'm forever blessed because You love me enough to create this perfect life for me.
*blissful sigh*
Thank You, Father for all You've given us. May I never forget and take things for granted, like the privilege of kissing my little one's "stinky foots" when he falls (forcing him into a giggling fit because he thinks it's funny that he got me to kiss his foot). I'd do anything for that boy, Lord. He's the gift in my life that came straight from You and I treasure him oh, so much. I'm forever blessed because You love me enough to create this perfect life for me.
*blissful sigh*
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